Interviewing Myself | hiatus

Do I write because I intend to fully express myself and maybe even create something astounding out of my life’s oscillating journey between simple and complex, or am I just bullshitting myself in my writing and arguing with the inevitable in the most juvenile manner by continuing to make a huge deal out of the most rudimentary constructs of life  as I replace commonly used words with lesser-known synonyms to make it appear that I am a man of supreme eloquence?