Illuminate Me

by Viktor Tejada

I often doubt about my decisions
Do I really want this?
Is this really what’s best for me?
Should this be the thing that I’m prioritizing right now?
I just, I don’t know
I’m a mess,
I don’t know what I’m doing,
And I don’t know what I should be doing
I often say that I’m on the road to enlightenment,
Though I’m blinded as hell
I can’t stop thinking
About my existence
About my future
About my books
About my writings
About my songs
About my family
About my friends
About my friends who came and went
About my you
And I don’t feel enlightened at all
I don’t know what I want
I don’t know what I need
I just,
I don’t know
Help me, illuminate,